Falling

I don't really remember September, of course school started and we had some challenges. Austen is alone quite a bit and I don't think He thought about that. He is quite clingy on the days Shane is at school and he's done his homework by noon. Math has been his biggest struggle but he is pulling his grade up from failing to a B. I'm so proud of him. Shane has had classes on Tuesdays, Thursdays this semester so that has been a blessing to have him around more. Gabrielle does seem to have Dyslexia but the school has a great program and she is keeping up and continues to do well. She actually brought home straights A's her first six weeks. I'm so proud of her.

Work is going well. The Lord has been working on me and my attitude. My reviews keep getting better and praise God I got a raise. Its amazing how long it takes to build relationships with those that you are forced to be with for 8 hours a day or more. But I think in my personal situation I'm seeing and feeling a difference. There have been many changes but the crew I work with is great.

Some things I've been learning is that I am valuable to God no matter where I am. I don't have to be a missionary in a far off place for God to use me. Of course I've known that in my head but my heart kept telling me that I need to do more-I'm not worthy-I need to sacrifice more. The verse, " the heart is deceitful of above all things, who can understand it." is a perfect verse for this situation. Over the summer, I worked on a bible study with Austen called Shepherding a Child's Heart. We studied several different topics like trusting God when bad things happen,negative behavior, the connection between our heart and mind. Recently, I've been doing a Beth Moore Bible study on Believing God. Believing that God is who He says He is, God Does what He says He will do, That I am who God says I am, That I can do all things through Christ, and that God's word is alive and active in me. Sometimes its hard to accept these truths, however, its takes a daily effort believe.

October was busy. First off, we celebrated Gabrielle's birthday. Some dear friends at church had us all over to ride horses. Shane and my mom just watched. Gabrielle had a friend over that went with us to ride and then we ate and Gabrielle opened her presents at our favorite pizza place. We then, celebrated our 15th anniversary by going to the Galord Texan in Grapevine, Tx. A beautiful resort. Thoroughly enjoyed the Medieval Dinner Theater. All I can say is Very Cool! Visited the Texas State Fair- ate a fried cheesecake-yummy! And of course the whole reason we went to Dallas is for me to run a 5K run in the Susan G Koman-Race for the Cure. I really didn't think I would do well but I did. God put someone in front of me that was going a good speed and I was able to finish the race in 32minutes 55 seconds. Lastly, We carved pumpkins with the married students at the university, I was in a dunking booth at my work fall festival and raised $174.00 for SGK, went the school carnival and worked in the Farm Fair at church.

Some things that Shane and I are praying about. 1: That we can find out whether we need to stay in Texas for Shane's master program. 2: If we do stay, do we move from this house to somewhere that we can have pets or that the owners will change their mind. 3. I have to have surgery in the spring, that it will resolve all my pain issues.